i really want to quit. i do. i am not lying and i am not trying to lie also. besides, i've told everybody that i really don't know when i will be attended to forget my vows and again try to reach him back. just like what i did on the 21st of July. ;P
silly me!

i sms him that night. i tell him or try to show him that at least i still care. but this time my action brings nothing but good deeds. :) (kan dia lagi meriang bow!)

i talked to Erik. he shared with me his actions and reactions if he were situated in (let's say) almost the same shoes. his answers were great. according to my analysis, he (p) is reacting just like what Erik would do if he is having an ill-feeled feeling towards a woman. and as usual, i assume that he is also udah il-feel sama gue.
dunno the reason why?? :(

Erik actually suggested me to just leave it. but i don't know why i still try to sms him that night. may be it's just because i am still curious about things.

i know i should stop. and i am still trying to stop...

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