i miss him so much!

i'd give anything to be able to go back to those times when we are together...

:)

you know what?!
i still dream of him. just this morning i dreamt that he tried to reach me through n***k's number. we (me and him) talked on the phone in the dream.

watta beautiful dream to me.

eventhough it's just a dream, i was surprised and very happy. i really wish that it happens in reality. i wish that the dream comes true in flesh and blood. i really-really can hear his voice again...

when i woke up, which happened not long after, i promise myself. that if it were true, if it really happens, i promise i would not wanna make the same mistake. i would treat him like a treasure.

i wish God hears this wish of mine.
that i still love him.
:)

besok si N & R akan nikah. gue pernah bilang sama cewenya kalo gue minta diundang. dan beberapa hari yang lalu, gue sempet agak-agak kuatir sekaligus agak senang karena gue tidak mendapatkan undangan apapun dari mereka.

ternyata, gue perlu agak kuatir sekarang. gue pernah bilang sama seorang teman baik gue kalo gue takut banget untuk dateng ke kawinan temen gue ini karena gue takut ketemu sama dia. secara mereka adalah teman baik dari si dia itu. gak mungkin kalo dia gak diundang... gue memang ada suting hari itu... tapi jahat banget gue kalo sampe gak dateng. kan gue yang minta diundang.

berdasarkan pengalaman, alasan suting itu sama sekali tidak membantu. jadi besok itu ceritanya gue mau berbesar hati untuk dateng ke kawinan dia. mudah-mudahan tidak ada aral melintang. terus ada lady luck yang bersedia hinggap padaku.

aku masih sangat peduli padanya. (SHIT!)