kok hari ini berasa banget ya. gue ngga tau kenapa berasa sedih aja.
i still really want it.
really... really... really want the position.

tapi gak tau kenapa, kok rasanya i feel like it has slipped away.
hiks.

i over heard my former boss talked to the director secretary about something. i don't know what they were talking about. but it seems that something important. coz before that, he was asking for her.
i am sad.

i still pray for it everyday.
i still really want it.
i still want to have that peace and joy.
and i really wish if it wasn't me, i want to have another better job.

please, dad.
please...